I'm On The Fence!

I'm on the Fence!

On the fence?

It’s time for me to change my tune. I used to be that careless free bird going with the flow. The most difficult decision I ever made was choosing which chocolate to buy, which ice cream to order or which was my favorite toy. Everything and everyone seemed equally interesting and fun. I used to be excited and fearless to try. I loved to explore the different paths and roads.

But the things have changed now; a large weight of expectations is dropped on my shoulders, most of which are self-imposed. I can no longer go with the tide in the sea of my life. Nothing now seems exciting, but I’m scared now. It’s the time to make decision that would change my life for the better or for the worse. There is no middle ground. I can either be a success or a big failure in life. The choice is mine and life would go on either way. I get loads of advices and suggestions but none is what I look forward to. I’m the driver of the car of my life and one wrong road and it will be me who will be handicapped for life.

I sometimes wonder am I eligible to be making such a decision, or should I let someone else make it for me? But it’s me who has to live with it for the rest of my life, and who else would know better than me about what I desire and what I’d like.

I’m caught between a rock and a hard place. I’ve a question on my hands answer to which is far not seen. I cannot dare to move until I’m sure it is the right thing. I have a hard time toying at the idea of what to choose and yet the choice is not made. Life is flowing and I’m not doing anything. Life is going by and I’m too scared to jump in and play.